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I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
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dun.ever.let.go 09/07/08
1) Single, taken or crushing?
._. lol first question and i need to skip already. -.-
2) Are you happy with your life now?
generally yeah. not happy, but neither am i unhappy.
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
nah...i listen to my brain too much to let myself do things on impulse. doesnt mean i've never done any stupid things though.
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
lolz...once...or twice? o.o
5) Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
nope...if u love me, u love me and shouldnt love anyone else...
6) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
definitely not. even if my heart begs me to, my brain wont allow it.
7) Have you talked about marriage with another before?
lol is divorce counted? o.O
8) Do you want children?
YEAH. i want 4 children, one guy one girl and a pair of twins with a guy and girl. =D
9) How many?
4 lah as mentioned above. =.=
10) Would you consider adoption?
nope...cos i dun think i can ever love someone else's child as well as my own.
11) If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
o.o just tell me straight bah...dun like ppl drag drag drag de. po po ma ma lol. -.-
12) Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
depends on who u get into it with...but sometimes single-hood has its advantages too.
13) Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
none of ur business. =) but dun think too much lah. x_x
14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
i believe in lust at first sight. LOL. how can u claim to love someone when u have only just laid eyes on them?
15) Are you romantic?
i think i am...hopeless romantic lol. =x
16) Do you believe you can change someone?
even if i can, i wont...if i change them, they wont be the ppl i fell in love with in the first place anymore...
17) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
did i say i want to get married LOL o.o
18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
sorry but my stubborn-ness just dun allow me to give in. i would rather both parties get hurt before i give in. (wa sounds bad hoh).
19) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
lol. -.-
20) Have you ever broken a heart?
haix......best left unanswered.
21) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you're deeply in love with, what would you do?
not like this never happen before...i will just do what i did the first time round. disappear from their lives and pretend none of this ever happened. =)
22) Are you missing someone now?
=)
# posted by shuj at 09/07/08 3:35 PM
dun.ever.let.go 07/07/08
just remembered during the camp someone asked me whether i'm attached and single now and my reaction. LOL i remember i was like stunned for 5 secs before i could reply...haha...=x
BECAUSE I'M A GIRL (ENGLISH VERSION)
just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes.
You give them all your heart, and then they rip it all away...
You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be.
And i believed in you, i thought that you would set me free...
(chorus)
You should've just told me the truth
That i wasn't the girl for you...
Still i didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you...
Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now
Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you
Because i am a girl
(*)
Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored...
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all still i just cry
Never again will i be fooled, to give my all
When nothing's true...
I won't be played again, but i will fall in love again...
(chorus)
You should've just told me the truth
That i wasn't the girl for you...
Still i didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you...
Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now
Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you
Because i am a girl
I loved u so... now u leave me in the cold
How could this be, i thought that u'd only love me...
Into the night, i will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I can't let u go
(bridge)
You took advantage of my willingness to do anything for love
Now i'm the only one in pain... will you please take it all away
~ Oh~
(chorus)
Never thought born being a girl
How i can love you and be burned...
And now i will build a wall, to never get torn again
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now
Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you
Because i am a girl
# posted by shuj at 07/07/08 12:43 PM
dun.ever.let.go 07/07/08
Dear Diary,
haix...the first time i had a bf, we werent together long enough for me to really get to know him and fall in love with him. till now i still regret that. the 2nd time i had a bf, we were very happy initially but gradually, things started to change...we started quarreling over small things everyday. i began to think about breaking up but everytime, something stopped me.
now that we have finally broken up, i cant help doubting whether i've done the right thing. what if i never find someone who treats me as well again, who loves me as much as u do? what if u were the one meant for me and i stupidly let go of u?
this song reminded me of my angel and mortal nick and the lyrics seem fitting so i shall just post it here...
"Mary Jane"
I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud
Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh
I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud
Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh
Cause time has taken back
Everything I thought we had
Mary Jane..
Could it be
Nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Oh whatever happened to
Ooh ooh
Mary Jane
# posted by shuj at 07/07/08 12:37 PM
dun.ever.let.go 05/07/08
it's always best to blog down things before i forget. went for a 4 days 3 nights camp on wed morning. met celine and went nus together, both lugging huge bags. tried looking for possible fellow campers along the way but din really see any cos i think we were quite late. after we settled in and brought in our things to our rooms (i din have to sleep alone!! they gave us a double room and i slept with celine =D).
went for wet games at the sch field and played station games. celine twisted her knee while running in one of the games. (did i mention there was only one male initiate in our group? but luckily there were 3 male chiefs =] ) then at night we had fright night. we were supposed to find out who killed the godfather and re-enact the murder on fri night. the station i went to was the one with the little girl ghost. we switched on all the lights along the corridor and kena scolded by the ghost to switch them off (LOL). the clue we were supposed to get were one whole string of numbers and we couldnt memorise everything cos we din know we had to bring our phones to record it. haix...lucky in the end one of the chiefs could get it from the ghost.
on the second day we went for a bidding stimulation exercise which was supposed to teach us how to bid for the modules we want. quite confused but at least managed to clear some basic doubts of mine. ^^ after that we went on photohunt where we have to solve questions and go and find the places/objects in the pictures. at night we had couples' night which i think is one of the more fun activities of the camp. we were each given fake names (eg liang shan bo and zhu ying tai OR rose and jack from titanic). mine was mary jane and my secret pal was called peter parker which i din know who was it until someone told me peter parker = spiderman. LOL. -.-
the first part of the evening we had chatterbox in which we sat in a circle and took turns talking to different guys. then we had mass games...the second part consisited of telematch with 5 stations. there was a twister station where u have to play twister with ur partner, another which u have to dance, one which u have to use poles to lift objcects. the most exciting one was the soccer game where u have to "blow" the pingpong ball into the other party's goal. my partner actually managed to score 3 points!! o.o wonder how he actually did it loh lol.
then the most fun one was charade cos i managed to guess correctly quite alot! =DDDD the results of the couples' night was revealed today (last day of camp) and we came in 2nd!! muahahaha~ only lost to one other couple leh...not bad. got vouchers and mushmellows.
on the third day we went for lecture on the basic things we should know before we decide whether to pursue a degree in psychology. after that we went for amazing race in which we have to go around singapore and food-hunt. haix quite obvious that we were the last group cos for our last station we din manage to do it though we reached there cos it was already closed. then waited super long for the bus to west coast park...reached west coast park and watched the rest play water bombs. saw alot of centipedes crawling around!! x_x
at night we had finale night where we had to reenact the murder scene. haix it was quite disappointing actually. i personally thought our skit was quite good and humourous and quite close to the original version of the story. was expected to get at least 3rd place for the skit but in the end we came in 5th, only before another group who got the murderer completely wrong. haix~ =( played quite alot games too but wasnt really interested cos i rarely listened to english songs and the games involved singing english songs. sobs.
after it ended we went back to our rooms to change and went for supper at west coast park mac. spent 1 hr walking there from nus campus. wasnt feeling very well and din really have much appetite so din eat. then spent the rest of the night stoning watching celine sleep while the rest played games. was quite tired actually. shall describe more about the camp, my room etc when i'm free. going sleep now~~ =D
# posted by shuj at 05/07/08 9:09 AM
dun.ever.let.go 01/07/08
going for camp tmr!! no i'm not scared at all i'm just terrified!! confirmed that everyone sleeping in single rooms ie i will have to sleep alone!!! argh~~~~~k 3 days of not-sleeping liao. x_x
but luckily my sis reassured me that no each room does NOT have its own toilet so though i shall have to sleep alone i wont have to bath alone. =D
was going to bring many many sets of clothes then refered to celine's way of packing ie pack as little as u can lol. luckily really managed to make my bag appear smaller.
anyway these few days if u all want find me chat or what just sms or call my hp and i'll reply whenever i'm free. =D going bring hp charger there too.
some essential things i definitely wont be letting out of my sight during the camp:
1. water bottle
2. torchlight
3. handphone
handphone is a MUST and i cant imagine how i used to survive those sch camps without a phone. =x shall update more on the camp after i'm back. =)
# posted by shuj at 01/07/08 3:11 PM
dun.ever.let.go 30/06/08
i heard today that night trail is go in groups de. =D went to play mj with nat they all and managed not to lose any money. had a funny encounter with a poor lizard. x_x had us all in hysterics LOL. quite fun. i took a video of wenen and seewah trying to catch the lizard while me and nat watched. interested parties contact me pls. =D
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haix. i think we finally came to an end today. after 2yrs + together and the 1 year of happy days we had i guess i will still feel sad. in a way i'm grateful for ur ma calling me which prompted me to give u this extra one week to see whether my feelings are still there. even though i'm still not sure, at least i'm sure of one thing. if i'm unhappy in a relationship, i will much rather be alone/single. after all i've been single for 16 years and wont die.
this one week made me sure that no matter how u promise u will change in the end the result will still be the same.
time to enjoy my singlehood!! =D i have half a mind to become a lesbian actually. =x anyone wants me~~? (only girls may apply) =)
# posted by shuj at 30/06/08 2:10 PM
dun.ever.let.go 29/06/08
shall be going for my camp soon. i'm not worried at all!! just super duper scared. x_x they told us to bring torchlight, so i got the feeling that there may be a night trail-like thingy during the camp. noooooo~~~~the last time i had that was my sec4 year loh and that one not counted cos my batch was in charge of scaring ppl. i still remember i was paired with carmen and we both scared ourselves silly by imagining things. o.o
hope nothing goes wrong ya. =x
went k box today and sang till no voice sia...but suddenly felt like the 3 hrs was so short!! i din have time to repeat all the jay songs that i wanted!! =( only had enough time to sing all the songs i want once. LOL. recently really cant play mj sia...keep play keep lose. play more lose more. -.- somemore tmr most prob still going play again with nat they all sia...must bring more money. =/
i'm so worried about the camp...
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i hope i din make a wrong choice. i hope i really did the right thing. this is the last chance i'm giving myself and u.
# posted by shuj at 29/06/08 2:24 PM